× 一个男孩对一个女孩的伤害 × Need your patience ~

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。

——纯纯的“对不起” 。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

—— “对不起”的快乐 。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？” 于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。快递为男孩送来一个盒子。男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。对不起，我想我是真的累了。”男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起......多陪陪该珍惜的。生命诚可贵，有情价更高。

看了有什麽感觸嗎?

Attn : Professional Player

After you spent your heart , don't ever try to get back !

No such things in this world now !

All you need to do is just treating it as you're doing CHARITY to those Pity Worms !

Lolz ! You giving me the ruth , I'll return back the ruthless to you !

Get ready to bear it ! so.. yea ! I'm STRONG ENOUGH to resist this kind of Bastard's Stuff !

erm.. not much to say ~

simple and easy {n,n}....

你敬我一尺 ，我敬你一丈 ！

你那么的楚楚可怜，我就当施舍我的爱给你 ，

谁叫我是多么有爱心的人 ？

你无情，我无意 ！

你所付出的，我受得起～我受之无愧 ～

谁叫我拿个良心给人当狗吠 ？

我还没火大，别把我当病猫 ！

我，不是你们想象中的那么温驯 ！

你要我发神经，我一样可以！

谁叫我的 EQ 那么高 ？

你要怎么继续我绝对奉陪到底 ^^V!!!

WTF ! ! !

* My * Own * Way

erm..

ann is living with her own way ,

frankly speaking ,

She does like her friends damn a lot !

she won't mentioned who are they actually ,

& she believed that they will know by themself ,

for ann herself ,

she don't think that she's keeping any secret ,

Of course ! She won't tell everything to a person .

a person who can't get what she mean by the way of her speaking ,

If ann treating you just as a normal friend ,

she won't reveal her real personalities ,

and she don't like to let them know who is actually ann !

although i'm speaking to a normal friend ,

Keep laughing , Keep smiling , Keep crapping ...

but she did shielding her personalities !

If you all don't know ann ,

you will treating as > ann is hiding herself <

If you know ann completely ,

you will treating as > ann is trying to know more about others <

I can speak to you easily ,

Once you started the conversation , I'll always continue the speaking easily .

When I'm quiet during the conversation ,

It doesn't means that I'm closed minded !

It doesn't means that I'm LC !

Because ann is actually observing each of everyone in the conversation ,

you won't know when she's observing ,

In Other Words ,

She likes to know everyone of you more than you all expected .

ermmm ..

I won't spend too much time for a person that not worth for me to do so !

again =__="" I'm not LC larh .. Lolx !

~ Just My Own Way ~

If You're my lovely one you'll totally get what I mean ,

The way I'm treating my lovely one is always different from others ,

either in friends / family / boyfriend ...

& Of course they will get who is ann !

Because we're trying to know more about each other

& you'll know that you're the special one in ann's heart !

Always is the special one !

she does love her lovely friend damn much !!!

until you all cnt even know the reality of ann's way ...

Is My Life ! Is My Way !

that's why I don't expect everyone likes me {n,n}...

don't spend your time for ann if she ignored you ~

f*ck Off if you dn't like me , nobody is begging you to stay in ann's world C=

again & again ~ I'M NOT LC larh !

all I need is just a trusted one ! Not a lot but a few ~

Beware Of Players ~

Loyalty ?!

errmm.. seriously ,

each of everyone of us don't have this kind of personality !

either Me or You ...

Okay, If You think that I'm wrong ,

Please ask yourself ~ how loyal are you ?

Is a Question Mark !

Ohh Yea ! Come back to My Topic today ~

Is spaces means distance ?

If you're thinking that way ...

Please clear of your mind ~ Is stupid !

Wow ! Today I'm just extremely EXCITED to tease on those PLAYBOY ! {n,n}..

what I did , is just a Nice Shit for a so call " Playboy " ..

Huh ! I really adore them ~

Can totally control their minds without any feelings ~

Tell Me Guys ! How did you do that ? I'm soOoo in wondering !~

You can pick and leave at the same time .. OR

even picking both / more than that ...

Oh ! F*cking Nice !

But For Me ,

They're really lack of self Nature !

They're really 犯贱 [ offend Cheap ] !

. . . My world is totally discriminate them xD . . .

! P L A Y B O Y !

U.N.K.N.O.W.N.

I ❤ The Song , is not because of those POP stars ...

I ❤ The Song , is not because of the chorus part ...

I ❤ The Song , is because it's touching my heart ...

The Song which revolving My Blog ,

Named " Takin' Back My Love "

This sentence fully oppose my feelings , but still I ❤ it ~

because some of the words Touching My Heart's Voices ~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w55Nib4uf1U

ENRIQUE :

I go at your speed, can't hold you, you're free

You take all these things, If they mean so much to you

I gave you your dreams Cause you meant the world

So did I deserve to be left here hurt

You think I don't know you're out of control

And then I'm finding all of this from my boys

Girl you're stone cold, you say it ain't so, you already know I'm not attached to materials

CIARA :

What did I do to give us the cue

I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you ...

From head to feet, All that's not me ...

Go head, keep the keys, That's not what I need from you

You think that you know, U'VE MAKE URSELF COLD ,

How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl

You're out of control, how could you let go Don't you know I'm not attached to materials

I'm just listen to these words & NOT the sentence of " I'm taking back my ❤ ", Because I doesn't means that kind of feelings ~

Named " I Hate This Part "

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NbtO9KRByWA

*We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue

And right now radio's all that we can hear

Now we ain't talk since we left, it's so over do

It's cold outside but between us is worst in here *

*I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through our fingers

I don't wanna try now

All that's left is good-bye

To find a way that I can tell you

I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE *

* Everyday, 7 takes of the same old scene

Seems we're bound by the loss of civilty

Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep

BUT WILL YOU SLEEP ONCE I TELL U WHAT'S HURTING ME *

* I know you'll ask me to hold on

and carry on like nothing's wrong

but there is no more time for lies

CAUSE I SEE THE SUNSET IN UR EYES *

Last sentence , as I told you all , I'm having AMNESIA ~ so... don't worry the annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ~ LOlz !

!NSANE Day ! On fire !

" B!tch " Class Rep !

The first time ,

a so call " GUY " act gentlemenless !

WTF ! I really get MAD with that kind of attitude !

You're a BOY not a GIRL please ~

Be Gentlemen a bit !!! Shit !

if you feel that i'm talking about you . . . forgiving me to say that . . .

because that's what you showing me !

[ readers, forgiving my impoliteness ]

! 简单 !

- 简单的爱 - 短暂的回忆 -

【男人可以今天说我爱你，明天说我要离开你，】

【不是要求高，】

【只需要的, 是一个可以牵着我的手陪着我走一段漫长的路的他 {n,n}"""】

现在的我，并不需要这一些了

还记得‘芝’告诉我：

既然都知道没结果了，既然都知道不会长久的，既然都知道一定会分的，

又何必费尽心思去经营一段没有未来的感情。

你说得对，当时的我还在犹豫不决，后来的我知道我错了。

也没想要回头，也没想要挽回了，

……很开心地选择遗忘……

忘了悲伤，忘了心疼，忘了痛苦

现在的我，

很是开心！很是兴奋！

今天的我，

笑得有够厉害！！！笑个不停！！！看上去像笨蛋一样 =___=""""

可是，我真的很快乐，经过了这一些，

我学会知足，我学会让自己幸福，我学会了爱自己，我学会了珍惜身边的每一位 ... ...

是他，令我成长了许多～谢谢……

晚安，各位，我要睡了，MUACKS !

祝：生日快乐*身体健康*心想事成

『910120的朋友』

19th JAN 2010 ( Tues )

Samantha * Ann

Drew*The Lonely xD

Ann * Drew

Sasa @ ann

Cool ! n__n !!!

aiyaa.. accidentally EMO ~ Lolz !

go back room ! ~ SLEEP ~~~~~

* secret of my Birthday *

* 22nd of October 1991 *

:: They are discoverer.

:: Always settle hidden things, hard to accept thing in easy way.

:: Emotion not play any role in their decisions.

:: Love to query things but hate being queried.

:: Known as a philosopher and knowledgeable.

:: they love technical things and talented to be a good researcher in solving things.

:: Love to keep secrets.

:: Live on their own way and need to learn to accept reality of the world.

Famous people that share your personalities :

William Shakespeare, Lucille Ball, Micheal Jackson, Joan Baez, Princess Diana.

************************************************************************

POSITIVE :

Her speech is soft and a good entertainer .

Good at keeping secret, only certain person can know the secret she's keeping.

Her decision not tough and easily influence by others.

In financial matters, she's good at savings, not stingy.

Hardworking, responsible, like to be praise but need guidance and supervising in many aspect.

NEGATIVE :

Like to blame others for any mistake, and have potential to become insincere.

When she didn't like a person she will caused trouble, stubborn.

Give up easily and always depend on others.

Always trapped in tough decisions.

**************************************************************************

Your Life : You have the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up to you for your capability and confidence although they find you quite stubborn. You should listen more to others. You are a unique and charming individual.

Your Love : You hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone. Whom you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you, you won't let them get away without having hard time.

****************************************************************************

F.I.N.A.L. F.A.N.T.A.S.Y. .X. { My Love }

~ I ❤ Yuna ~

Final fantasy X is my favourite animes ~

❤ it damn much !!!!!

LIBRA

1、未婚的秤子雖然有很多感情的邂逅，不過在2010年可別強求一定要有什麼好結果，因為你中意的對象未必看上你，很可能你是處於單相思的情況，不然也都屬於一閃而逝的戀情，難以保持長長久久的熱度，別在心裡存有太浪漫的幻想。
2、心理健康才能用務實的態度去經營感情，而感情生活的愉快與否也影響著秤子的健康，已經有親密愛人的秤子，2010年兩人的感情發展穩定，但你可能也沒啥心思去搞浪漫，你在2010年的生活重心應該會放在工作的發展上，為了兩人的未來而打拼。
3、2010年秤子們的桃花，跟金錢、權勢可能脫離不了關係，若是把愛情當作籌碼來玩一場爾虞...我詐的曖昧遊戲，彼此的發展是頗令人擔憂的，要小心往後吃苦頭，如果不是真心相愛，秤子們就要長期觀察並衡量得失才行。
"出生月份的愛情弱點"! : "十月"
十月出生的你外表看來好像永遠是冷冰冰的，其實你是屬於外冷內熱的人，總是默默地在遠方凝望方，期待他的注意與回應。

* L * O * L * X

LOLX !

3 of us :

ann * samantha * andrew

Heheheee.. Take picture during ' Doraemon ' session !

None of you will know what i mean C=..

Just 3 of us know it ! LMAO !!!

self-loving of ann again ~ Hees ~ ...

_ IKANO _

Tomorrow holidays ~ but I don't have any plan at all >__<"""

aiyo ! no cure ! stay at INTI NOOB ==!!! sighh ~

空白

看见幸福的你们

我很是羡慕

看见幸福的你们

我很是心疼

看见幸福的你们

我期待 . . .何时的我 ，

才能像你们一样拥有自己的的幸福

我的四周都充满着幸福的你们 ，

我很想独自地离开 . . .

我并不是自私 ，只是感觉很讽刺 ，

我不想知道你们任何一个人的幸福 ，

我不想知道你们任何一个人有多开心 ，

我不想懂 . . .

再说一次 ， 我并不是自私 ，

只是你们所拥有的 ， 我都没有 ，
我没你们那么幸运 ， 我承认 . . .
不敢再期待了 , 不敢再等待了 , 不敢再遐想了

很羡慕幸福的你们 ，很羡慕快乐的你们 . . .

看见你们一个一个地离开我的世界 ，

我只能选择忘记 ，
我什么都不缺 . . .

我只想要简单的幸福 ～

你们太复杂了，你们太聪明了 ，

我 ， 不懂得如何分辨你们 . . .

你们的好 ，你们的坏 . . . 我都不知道 ，我都不懂得 . . .

我想快点离开这里 ，我不需要这里的一切 ～

我也知道这里没有任何事情值得我去挽留 ，

却只有悲伤的脚印残留在这里 ～

而我 ，再也不想看见这一切 ～

我迷失了 ， 迷失在这狭小的校园里 ，

我找了很久还是找不回快乐的我 ，

一切都粉碎了 ， 我想要离开这里 ～

【你们都是我的新朋友，我很快乐认识你们】

但是，你们都不了解以前的我，旧朋友们都说我改变了一切，已经不再是巧恩了，

他们问了我，你怎么了？我默不作声 ...

他们问了我 ， 你怎么都不笑了 ？ 我们的傻婆去了哪 ？

他们问了我 ， 你那一连串的‘烂gag’ 呢 ？ 没有了吗？

我静静地... 顿时空白 ， 我忘了原来的我 ...

我去了哪 ？ 我的快乐呢 ？ 我的傻笑呢 ？

为什么现在笑起来都觉得假 ～ . . . 唉 . . .

12th January 2010 [ Whole day CHEMISTRY ]

* Ann *

* Ann ❤ SaSa *

* Drew *

The table behind us was fulled of pizza ! each person 1 pizza !

we are wondering how they finish it >___<""" ....

The lonely Deli wings ~ =__='''...

Chemistry Class :

10 - 12 pm

2 - 3 pm

after first class , then 3 of us went PizzaHut .. Lolz...
The waiters / waitress over there are really XIAO lah ! all in deafness =__=""" ...

some more got one waitress left her handphone inside the washroom ...

I took and gave it to them .. then told Drew & Sasa ,
they said they would rather throw into the U-shaped Toilet Bowl ! LMAO ! Hahaaa ! ! !

really full until the max ! 3 of us pengsan due to the foods ~

It's just damn much and we can't finish off !

Sasa : 撞火 !

Drew : 哇 ! 攞堆火黎撞啊 ?!

Ann : 笑到晕 ~ 哈哈 !
The waitress !

SHIT Her !
The pizzas put on her hand and stand still ! Wait us to take it from her 'Golden' Hand !

but still ! charged us 15% service charge =___='''''...
ask her pay for us lorh .. We serving her !
ewwwww !

. . . 1++ pm . . .
still got time , hehees...play pool luuuu ~

E V E N T U A L L Y

[ Late 15 minutes for class =__= ]

Broken Strings

. . . The broken strings . . .

everythings gone without any noise ~

Heart feel so pain ! Just damn much !

Clearly know the indication ~

The Beads ! >__<'''''...

wow ! the beads !

Ohh my gOshhh !

I damn ❤ the beadssssssssssssssssssss ~
cutie one ! Keep On play with it after finished the experiments xD !

Link It ! C=.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w55Nib4uf1U

@ 男人女人 @

男人女人

爱爱爱爱了几回 ， 也明白其中滋味 ， 付出的从来不会等于收回 ， 我却 还在 ，等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回 ， 也曾经为爱憔悴 ， 爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈 ， 我却还是学不会 ， 狠心对谁

男人 男人 ， 多希望你是好人 ， 多希望用你的真 ， 让我不必再心疼

女人 女人 ， 我答应做个好人 ， 我答应用我一生 ， 来换你的快乐一生


我却还是学不会 ， 狠心 对谁

不会再让我(你)心疼 ， 一等再等 ， 你就是我等的那个人

男人 男人 ， 女人 女人

多么希望你是对的人

Chit-Chat with My friend through MSN

Conversation between ann & E**y
realized somethg
hehe
check it Out in my blog ..
i just posted it..

wokay
no wonder so quiet~ blogging~

hehe
my hoBby..

well~ i still cant get the answer
wat thing u realize?

theY said whn theY reaD y blog theY just feel i keep evrythg inside my heart
i mean psycologically
through my writing..
nt my face

yea~ kinda~
and u knw wat?
sometimes i cant understand wat u actually write in blog..

cause theY said theY're wondering what's happen after reaDing my blog...

i actually read it a few times den i knw

have to reaD few times thn u knw?

some of the lines la...
not the whole blog

u knw... sometimes .. i just write it on a piece of paper..
thn i try to rearrange it..

den u din blog it out?
wah~
got draft agn oo

thn i post it ..
so...
sometimes... a lot of ppl dnt understand what I'm trying to say..
theY said i' complicated.. and i always hide my feelings..
bt actually.. i dint..

u jus write it all out in the blog
i understand

i'm nt complicated... just i dnt want to show everyone that i' talking someone...

i knw~
tats why i said u wrote everything down on a blog

just i want to let the one involved in that title , maybe he or she kws..
that's it...

icic~
but its gud tho~

bt ... maybe she or he dint get what i mean also...
so... the same thg happen... TheY are again say that i'm hiding my emotion..

u will knw whether they get it or not...

i dint.. i just want to let the one knw what am I saying..
bt nt others..
i hope theY knw.. what I mean...
and theY dint get e ... that's why I' becoming complicated for thm..
again and again..

ok~ tats complicated
but its ok~
these kind of things takes time

actually I dn knw why I'm so complicated for thm..
bt LD... i' just write what i want to say .. bt nt that obvious..

ya i knw~

i showed my feelings by the question marks ..
cause that's the things affect me..
so posted it Out..
after that.. I just feel nthg with me..
i blog ..
just to spend my time here ...
and write evrythg inside me ..bt again.. nt that obvious...

because of "not that obvious" makes dem think, the more they think, the more they find it complicated.....if they can think and get it, they wont think its complicated.....

so.. theY again saying me is complicated..
aww... !

jus tat it is obvious they cant figure it out

should i change the way of y blogging..
cause theY dn get me at all...
someties i posted some words that's hard to understand..
and i'm just trying to improve my english..
that's it..
nt i want to make ppl complicated..

i read ur blog also need to read for few times
tats why they dun understand~ and tat is why i read many times den i understand
like that also can~ steady !

seriously..
i nt even thk theY will say I'm complicated because theY all cnt get the meaning of me..
and yet.. i feeling funny whn I heard all these thgs ...
原来我在别人眼中，是这么的复杂
i just knw by today...
that I'm complicated...
aww !

did they ask u when they dont knw anything?

yea.. sometimes... and someties i just say ntg cause I' Lazy to expLain
smtimes i answered bt sometimes i ignOre the questioning ..
cause I' Lazy to exPLain again..
and because I write Out ady.. means it's past...
that's all i mean...

if i were dem.....i can jus find the right time to ask
for ur information~ sometimes i'll be gaypo de...
so if i'm 38 jus ignore leh k
kekeke

Oops reader ! untill today .. I'm just realized that I'm complicated for evryone .. sorry...

I really don't know I making you all misunderstanding me .. just apologize for it..

Hahaa.. feeling funny when I heard that ... feeling funny when I chat with them .... Just no comment about this .. erm.. I think I should post directly next time .. Am I have to do so ? Just to ask C=... and again No Other Meanings ^___^.... Lolz !

AWW ! I MISS HIM !

Hehe.. boring again arhhh ~

weather is damn HOT !

aiks ! cannot sleep at all !!!!!!

after spit out all the things I feel very happy xD ...

become XIAO ! just want laugh out loudly !

Why do I look complicated for everyone ?

Hahahaa.. seriously I don't know it's happenning on me ..

ermm... how to say ?

I just don't like the feeling to affect other people C=.. That's it ! simple ..

and I keep nothing ~ cause what i feel i'm just write it out here ^__^...

after that , it's just past .. just give me few days or just few minutes , i will forget everything C=...

That's me... emotional all the time ...

ermm.. sometimes just feeling a bit boring here , and i start to think something to write it out here .. ^___^... just to keep my blog alive C=... wahahahaaa ~

cause INTI really really NOOB errrr ~ sien diao ~~~~~~
and I Miss Nick C=..

feeling happy with it ... Hees ...

Good Night everyOne ! Muacks ~ ...

sweet dream for you all ... and ann always do LOVE you all !

It's Just The Same

Days by Days ,

Hours by Hours ,

Minutes by Minutes ,

Seconds by Seconds ,

... It's just the same for me ...

Heard what em' asked ,

Is it On ?

Heard an answer ,

Offline !

... I smiled C= ...
How embarrassed am I ? How blush am I ? How disappoint is it ? How lampoon am I ?

No capability to cry anymore ... No energy to undertake anymore ...

Heard em' said ,

ann is tough !

Thanks my friends ~

Yea ... I'm tough when I see you guys ... Keep smiling everyday I meet you guys ... {n__n} ..

Thanks ~

I'm tough because of you guys ....

I just want to be happy with all of you , without any sadness with all of you ...

I keep my smile that will never gone ...

after the class ,

Immediately , I walked back my way keeping with my sufferance ...

Immediately , I took a cold bath to wake myself ....

Immediately , I found myself in my room ...

curing every single wound on myself carefully ...

disappearing of blood and It's just empty

~ started Tearing silently ~

... An Empty Me ...

eww ! an ugly me ~

eww ! a weakest me ~

ann is just the same ! wry smiling ~

feeling bitter ~

feeling isolated ~ feeling lonely ~ feeling cowardly ~

How hurt am I ? I don't know ... Immune ... ..

Just A Mess !

You filled me ,

It's burst like a crenation ,

You salvaged me ,

It's a bless for me ,

You consoled me ,

It's just feel a security for me ,

You regarded me ,

It's a happiness for me ,

You approaching me ,

and I feel you ...
You're just the one wake me up inside my little world ,
and I feel you ...

You're just so concerned about me ,

and I feel you ...

You're such lovable ,

and I feel you ...

I thought I've found you ,

I thought I've the rights to be with you ,

I thought It is just a starting point ,

I thought everything goes perfectly ,

I can't even think It can be spoilt without anything ,

I can't even think It can move on easily ,

I can't even think It can become this kind of situation ,

I can't even think I'm so in blur case for it ,

everything comes to me at the beginning ,

everything changed when I get the wrong judge of You ,

You're not comes to me , but others ...

It's just damaged me badly !

I can't blame anyone ,

I can't do anything ,

I can't believe it ,

I can't stand it .

It's all my choice , It's all my way ,

... I choosed to trust you but no others ...

I'm wondering who can give me an answer ,

but It just Nobody ...

You won't feel my feelings ,

You won't know who am I ,

I disappeared from your eyesight ,

It's just because I stay next to you without your knowledge ,

... Quietly , calmly and peacefully ...

and You never feel me ...

Disappointed to get that You can stay without me ...

It's just a mess for me and only me ...

My feeling is just so bad ...

I can't bear the ruthless you gave me ~

S I L E N T

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天 ， 睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的

我想你已表现的非常明白 ， 我懂我也知道你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信 ， 牵着你陪着我也只是曾经

希望他是真的比我还要爱你 ， 我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开 ， 为什么还要我用微笑来带过

我没有这种天份包容你也接受他 ， 不用担心的太多我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开 ， 为什么我连分开都迁就着你

我真的没有天份安静的没这么快 ， 我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

原来

原来

一切都是幻影

原来

全部都是陷阱

原来

一个故事的背后隐藏了秘密

原来

付出了真诚得来的都是欺骗

原来

我最傻

原来

我是多余的

很傻的我 ，

却一直相信身边的每一个人 ， 如果我是一本书 ， 我愿成为你们最快乐的一页 ，

很傻的我 ，

却一直不敢表达自己的感觉 ， 但我选择了告诉我自己 ， 我爱他 ，

很傻的我 ，

却一直徘徊他的行动 ， 可是我的期待泡影了 ， 原来是我自己一直期待 ，

很傻的我 ，

觉得我们四个在一起是最快乐的 ， 我真的想把那一刻停留 ，

很傻的我 ，

聆听他人的指导 ， 原来我是最傻的 ，

我希望我自己能真诚地珍惜每一位在我身边的人 ，包括你

我的期待换来了绝情和失望 ，

我的用心却被糟蹋了 ，

一个人躲在角落的哭着 ，

我想找一个好朋友诉苦 ，

我想到的却是她 ， 不敢打扰她 ，

因为我知道事情并不是那么简单 ， 也并不是我想象的那样 ，

看着他用心地选了一份“武器”

我还以为那只是将军的心意 ，

我笑着对自己说：“我觉得有你们是幸福的”

在这场战争里 ，

我还以为有你们的扶持 ，

我还很傻的笑了 ，

你鼓励我并让我重新振作 ，

你说你会一直守护我 ，

你说你爱我 ，

我觉得我找到了你 ，

傻傻的在微笑 ，

想快点地告诉你 ， 我很是爱你 ，

可是 ，

我知道你的心里正在等待对方的投降 ，

那时候 ，

我知道我太简单了 ，

我用一切……只想把你留住 ，

当这一切发生后……

不知从何时开始 ，

你说这一切都改变了 ，

你觉得我很复杂 ……

你感觉不到我在哪里 ……

你将我变成你们的距离……

你觉得你也不需要我了 ……

到最后 ，

我终于知道这场战争里原来只有你们的三人行 ……

你们都是将军 ……

而我却像一个无能的小兵 ……

我输了 ，

输得一败涂地 ， 输的站不起来 ……

我拿捏不到你们厉害的策略 ……

因为我不聪明 …… 我只是听从将军们的吩咐 ，

做了傻事…… 很傻的我 …… 很傻的我 ……

我已经翩体磷伤了 ，

别再扶我了 ， 别再为我疗伤了 ， 因为我只是让你们每一位将军去令对方落荒而逃的武器 ……

当我听见你感觉不到我在哪里了 ……

我心里已在哭泣…… 而我却找不到一个地方让我哭～

原来 ，

我只是每一方的战利品 ……

写完了这一切 ， 我发觉原来我不是收藏秘密 ， 是因为我不知如何告诉你们 ， 我很痛 ，原来将军们都有不为人知的秘密 …… 看见你们锐利的眼神 ……

我，

逃了～

因为我没有那种天分与你们战斗 ……

一道又一道的伤痕都已经洗不掉了 ……

很多累人的经验了 ……

我好累 ……

原来，

我 ，

已经一无所有了～

stupid fellow in facebook =___="""

Met a stupid fellow !

经典！first time meet a stupid like this !

Hahaaa ! LMAO !

" xiao " people !

... who ...

saying :

wei ! who are you ?!

why u appear in my friend's list ???

saying :

wei ! what's ur name ?!!!!

why u add me and dint tell me ?

saying :

I want be friend with you !

please answer my question !

saying :

I'm not bad guy !

wei ! I don't have a friend like you !

so ! let's be friend .

My result !

Guess it !

The Most Ugly one :

' D '

The Most pretty one :

' A '

Wow ! I just got it in the afternoon !

cause i never check it through line !

Hahaa !! I did it !!!!! I get at least an A for last semester !

Yeah !! sOoooooooOoo in excited !!!

Lalalaaaa ~ Math & Stat !!! I LOVE YOU !

Umm.. maybe for you all... is not a good good result ..

but I'm happy with it C=...

I wanna Improve for my coming As level !

Gambateh !

You..

You :
ann, you'll be my number 1 girl ,
I spend all of my time thinking about you ,
I don't know what to do ,
because I really falling for you .



You :
Nothing will be gone from us ,
although something is happen in a second ,
but , it's our destiny ,
ann, I'll work hard for our relationship .


You :
God makes an injured ann appear in my life ,
and I will cure every single wound for her,
when I'm tired , I'll take a rest and continue to cure ann ,
It's not about fair or unfair ,
in a relationship doesn't matter who is right or wrong ,
not comparing each other doing more than another ,
as long as we loving each other ,
That's already enough .


You :
If loving you is a erroneous ,
I do believe this will be the most pretty blunder in my life ever ,
I will be willing to take it for the rest of my life ,
because I know it's would be worth ,
The existing of you makes me turns to a better man than who am I before ,
I miss you badly ,
You're so lovable and I Love You .



You :
ann, whenever you need me ,
I'll be around ,
no matter what happen ,
I will still by your side ,
supporting you , protecting you ,
I want ann feels secured when she's with me ,
nothing gonna hurt ann ,
and she will be safe ,
I don't know how much happiness i could bring to you ,
but I wll try to fill it up as much as I could ,
Love doesn't mean by looking for the perfect match or perfect person ,
but I will make you perfect in my heart .

" 下 雨 天 "

南拳妈妈 - 下雨天

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QR8GaeA6G_s

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺
有谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
差别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉




期待让人越来越疲惫
有谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
差别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
差别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉