I knew I know

I thought I sealed yet I revealed ...
I thought I happy yet I faked ...
I thought it's ended yet it's shielded ...
The brine I controlled yet it's flowing ...
The hands given yet took it back , I saw ...
Get myself drunk ,
I thought it would be a mist ...
Yet it seems clearer in between ...
Eyesight I caught yet I felt ...
Something that I couldn't describe ...
The fullstop I put yet I found , It's a mistake ...
Why everything I thought yet I felt cheated !
Cheated by myself badly ...
The frequency of the voice I heard ...
It's disappeared such a long time ...
Finally , I lose controlled and tears drop off !
Sorry for what I've done with my pupils ,
I can't even control myself !
I knew it's sounds crazy & it was stupid !
WHAT AM I THINKING ?
I knew I know ...I lost my way ...I'M blanked out ...
Just a song that might be sang my heart ...( 掉了 )

Fully Used for 24 Hours ! ^^*

Venue : INTI International University

Time : 4+ a.m - 6+a.m

A Memorable Night before leaving INTI ~ 

Hey Guys ! really Miss you all a lot ! 

{T_____________________________________________T}""

“ 你♥ 和 你們♥ ”

Officially Completed A-level Programme ,

I feel hard to leave INTI ,

I seriously need a Time Freezer ~ sob !

To My Babe ♥♥♥ :

Dear, I feel hard to leave here coz' I feel distress to leave you ...

Everytime trying to tell you that I'M depressed to leave here but I din't !

Everytime when I lying inside your bosom , 

I can feel the warmest air surrounded me ...

I know that I'M always EMOTIONAL , 好像有點神經質 {=__=}"""

easy to laugh and laugh non-stop !

easy to get down until crying non-stop !

easy to get angry which at first I angry with you and last I angry with Myself !

sometimes so RUDE ! {=_________=}""" 不懂是不是女的 o,O""""

sometimes pinch you here and there when I get PekCek ! LIKE to Bully You !

sometimes crying with just a tiny little problems or argue with parents !

[ You're the one who listen to me patiently when I'M facing problems ]

and yet , console Me and Hugged Me everytime ! ♥

[ Do you ever know that ... Your Hugging is the only indorsement for Me ? ] 

Dear, No matter what had happened , 

I don't want a KISS ! I just need You to Hug Me ! 

coz' I ♥ to listen Your Heartbeats Tenderly ~ ♥♥♥

♥ The way you Hold my hands although the Manual gear IS seriously Obstructed us ! ^^* 

♥ The way you let me know & telling me that I'M having You and I'M not alone ~ 

♥ The way you Care me ~ =]

♥ The way you saying me 頑皮 ! :p

♥ The way you Hug me tightly ! ^^*

Although we stay not really far from each other ,

But we getting less chances to meet each other ,

No worries babe ... No matter where we are ,

I'M always stay in your Heart♥ ... 
( I LIKE THE SOUP , IT'S ALWAYS WARM ）

無論傷心還是難過 ，你都讓我依靠著你 ，撫摸著我的頭髮，然後輕輕地告訴我，我還有你～♥

親愛的，千萬別忘了，無論傷心還是難過，我也一樣讓你依靠著我，然後輕輕地告訴你，你也一樣還有我～♥

當我覺得幸苦，快要喘不過氣了，你都讓我躺在你懷裡，呵護著我，疼我 ～

親愛的，千萬別忘了，我說過，“ 只要你覺得辛苦，累了，煩惱的時候，就抱著我 ” 

你問為什麼，我說沒什麼

只想讓你躺在我懷裡，我一定呵護你疼著你就對了！♥

****************************************************************************

To My Buds ♥ :

Not really mix with you all in the first SEM ...

[ 不參而且還有點不爽 ] <<< 現在覺得很可笑咯！！！～～～ :p

But I feel blessed to become the NEWest & YOUNGest Member of This GANG ~♥

First time Hang out with you all , I was wondering how you all go without car ~ 

Rent Car {=_______=}"""" 真的是第一次知道原來（車）可以租的 ～ lolx !

OverTime , I used to have Brunch OR Dinner with you all ...

Slowly ... It becomes even Bruncher ( Breakfast + Lunch + Dinner ) 

OR Might be Dinnerless & SupperOn ! 

Slowly ... you all get to know that I don't eat rice ! ( ANTI - RICE )

CheaYee♥ ,

[ 廣東歌Mate + SensorMate + MakeUp PRO ]

以前不認識你，覺得你有點“窜”，認識後，然後越看你就越愛你！♥ Hahahhahaaahaaa！

( No worries I'M not lessbian  )

We LIKE 豬腸牛肉 ( 自己洗碗的中國UNCLE ) , We LIKE chiong K ( My Box punya bau ) ,

SOMETIMES got that SENCE ( CHANNEL CONNECTED ) before doing OR saying that : 

" I Gotta Feel to sing K " , " I Gotta Feel to eat lok lok " , etc. Just keep I GOTTA FEEL ~~~lolx ! :p 

不約而同wear shorts to EXAM Venue ～ ( 不懂為什麼就是覺得爽爽就穿) 

每次～每次～！相約在E BLOCK的廁所 ～ lolxxxxxx !

Still remember the day We both had Our BRUNCHER at Tania♥ , 

Talking bad things about SOMEONE ~ lol ~ 

[ Mine one 做不出那個效果！]

[ Yours one 腳趾眼睛噴出來！] might be due to [ Gordon's one 腳噴肉！]

My Gosh ! I can't stop laughing for this word " 喷！" 

Talking about MakeUp , apa-apa problem pun boleh tanya Dia ~ 

20/11/2010 , We Hug Hug !~ Weee ~

I HUGGED YOU ! ♥♥♥ YOU HUGGED ME ! ♥♥♥ Aww ~ LOVE YOU !

JiaXian♥ ,

[ 超級點歌王 ]

Every K-session , You're our PROUD , Knowing that the songs of all us ... 最了解我們喜歡的歌就是你！♥

I think you would be My [ MSN"sMate ] among all ~ No doubt ! You're always in My Favourite♥ List ! 

You Taught Me about shopping online ~Bank in Hostel Fees ~ Let me know that INTI got an OFFICE called G.O ~ As you din't say I'll never know also ~ lolx ~! 

Dia SUKA makan BURGER SPECIAL MIX without BREAD ! Hurrrr ....

{=______________________________________=}"""""""""""""""" I KNOW YOU LIKE MY SWEAT ! 

Eat PIZZA by Ordering LOTS of side orders ～ 

還有！每次食物放了幾天！還拿來吃！不可以！(NAKED eyes can't see MICROORGANISMS)

This's what I can sense by NOT really knowing your past ~ Although you always looks a bit sot sot but is still knowing that you're actually Hiding some emotions ~ Your SotSotness may be just to cover your Feelings ~ ( 有時覺得蠻像我的，看似傻傻的，可是這應該是在掩飾心情吧 ) ermmm ... On Behalf Of This GANG , I would like to say SORRY to you coz' sometimes we're actually making you 很難做人 ～ I don't care Who will be Your Life Partner , Get someone who REALLY support you but not hold you physically ! love you but not hurt you ! Hug you instead of Kiss You ! Feel proud that He having you as his Girlfriend ! ^^* ~ 

Enni♥ 

[ Mature Thinker ]

Seriously , after thinking for 6 minutes 30 seconds ..

I REALLY don't know what MATE you would be ~ {=____=}""

So difficult to give any special name ~ lolx ~ 

Ini ENNI really pattern banyak when eating MAXIM's fried rice ! (洋蔥青蔥挑完出來) Hurrrr ~ o,O"""

Whatever FOODS also NEED 醬油 ！ (名副其實生抽王) 

I think she is COOL !

She don't like means don't like , She won't affected easily by Others ~ She follows what she tought of ~ 

I do REMEMBER what she said !

 [ 我們不可能忘記一個人，就算只是一個很普通很普通的朋友我們也不可能去忘記；更何況是自己愛過的人 ]

 [ I don't need a GOOD BOY who haven't expose to social BUT I need a Boy who already BAD & Transformed to GOOD MAN ] ................................etc.

When nothing to talk then quiet , she ♥ personal space ~

when can talk then can talk about many things ~ 

The one will console me when I feel not Okay with My Crush incident with ***** ,

The one will ask me don't cry ... 

Cooked Maggie for you once ♥ , Talk about something and Make Me feel that I want to get to know you more & more ! =] sometimes feeling that If I got you as My sister , I'll be lucky ! ♥♥♥


Drew ^^* ~
You're My very first friend since I came INTI ! & of course one of My Chiong K KAKI ! 
Thanks for your support when I'M feeling down ~ ^^* ... The way you Help Me , I do always remember ~ 
As I don't have any friends at the beginning , I used to talk to you when I'M feeling down !
When I facing some LOVE problems ~ You will always listen to my problems ~ and asking Me not to care those 
Heartless people ! You asked me watch 小新 ! lolx ! Being affected by you ! 
Can't forget the days during Ours As examinations , we studied at AO , Cornflakes + Milk ...
lolx ! and Of course ! You're the CRAP King ! The one who able to speak Cantonese so WELL among all My friends ! Always 有異性沒人性 ! HaHa ! Nevermind ! IMMUNE ! :p Hor ! Almost forget ! You're SKIP CLASS KING ! The one who always TEXT Me ： " Where Is The Class ? "
and Of Course I might be knowing your problem sometimes , always REMEMBER we're Best friend at INTI !  Friend"s Caring =] ~ I used to call you 白骨精 ~ Cause you LIKE eating MAMEE & MAGGIE ! Don't eat too much OKAY ?!!!! :p 

Tiong^^* ~

[ STRONG ANTENNA + GREATest GANG count + 酸王 ]

Hurrr ~~~! Tiong ~ Let you to know first ! >,<"""""" I already spent 6++ Hours to write everything here .. 

So, please forgive me if I not able to write so detail ~ 

First Of All ~ I JUST WANT TO SAY I ♥  “ Oo cu Bi ” ～～～～～～～～！！！！

You're The MOST 搶鏡 in almost every Outing session ! (PATTERN Banyak while taking pics)

Always saying Me " 晒命 " hahaaaa ! 

Always want to 酸 Me ~ lolx ~

" 帶路帶到自己睡覺 " apa-apa pun SOUR ~ Nevermind ! I got SWEET♥ in My room {^___^}* ~

SEE ! I bet you never ever have this kind of friend ! so ~ I'M succeeded to make you REMEMBER who is ChiaChiaoAnn ! Hoho ~ :p

He is just the way He is ! He care about friends although He 酸 Me ～ Yea ! I agree with you ! You're just the way You are ! You don't care how strangers think about you ! 

是朋友的話，就是要講，講也是一種關心 ^^*～ 如果不認識你，也沒有要講你pun ~~~~ :p 

AM I RIGHT ? TeeHee ! I KNOW HATE THIS  >,<""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""" AND == ...

No cure you've to accept .. coz' THIS IS MY PATTERN♥ ～ lolx !

我只想說！你們這幾個瓜！都要找到自己的幸福！我也會讓自己幸福！總而言之！

大家都一定一定要幸福！我們醬PATTERN都可以參一起就是緣分！所以一定會再見！

PATTERN LIAW LIAW GANG 
Ha ! Ha ! DEAR～♥ We same PATTERN also ! WE LOVE TO SING OLD SONGS ~~~ 
Finally got someone SAME PATTERN with ME ! woohOoo !

不是應該開心的嗎？

很快地，就要離開這裡...
不是應該開心的嗎？
回想當初，我真的恨不得離開這裡...
因為這裡留下許多不快樂的回憶...
可是，在此時此刻，我卻捨不得離開這裡...
想想自己，真的很矛盾...
我懷念這裡一切的一切，
好的壞的都一樣，
謝謝你們每一位的出現，
你們讓我成長了不少，
所發生過事，實在太多～
我也不多說了～
因為我的部落格是從我踏進這裡的第一天而開的，
這裡所有的部落大概可以說是屬於INTI的～
我要離開這裡，我很捨不得～捨不得就對了！
我最近也沒什麼心情～沒有心情就對了！
要離開這裡！我一點也不快樂！

♥ Our 1st Month ♥

♥

Love is Gentle Caring ,

A quiet concern ,

Hidden deeply in the Heart ,

A presence always felt ,

everyday , every minutes , every seconds ,

Love is Gentle Embrace ,

between 2 souls ,

A quiet touch of the hand ,

A soft Hug by warm arms ,

Love is great passion ,

between 2 Hungry Hearts ,

The Intimate exchange ,

between Mind & Soul ,

We couldn't make any promise ,

promise that how long we'll last ,

but It's about continuity between You & Me ...

I always cry , always ! 

still remember that the first You called Me ,

I already cry overly ~ Making me feel awkward enough !

You know I'M always feeble ...

You giving Me support ~ ...

Make Me secured by lying inside Your bosom ... 

Always be there for Me ...

Just want to tell You , 

My ♥ for You is blooming exponentially ~

♥

！喜怒無常 ！

I'M Happy coz' I'M no longer be an A-level student !

I'M sad coz' I'M going to leave INTI very soon !

I Miss My Friends a lot ! >,<"""" 

" A sorry that never die "

20 days more ,
I'll leave here ,
Leaving Interrogative over here ,
I think here will be no longer belongs to me ,
Everything seems becoming denouement ,
The Keys leaving reciprocate ,
I think I'll never know truthful thought of someone ,
I'M leaving the footsteps onto the Ground of Memories ,
I always remember the places where existing us ,
Memories that just for Me to recall ,
and remain powerless to proceed anything ,
The Memories which I couldn't neglect ,
saying that I seriously hate here ,
opposingly in my mind that, I miss this place...
saying that I will never reserving a latitude ,
opposingly in my heart that, will do...
A sorry that never die away ...
please forgive Myself for doing this ,
and allowed Me to be Indulgence !
Thanks to be part of My days at INTI ...
 

知己

也许生命中曾出现过这样一个人，

曾经关系很好，好到他一个眼神就明白一切，开着一些暧昧的玩笑，朋友也总是撺掇两个人在一起。其实心里明白真正交往不如当一辈子的朋友，却还是因为某一时刻的动心，冲动的在一起了。

在一起后，发现一切都变了，不再是欢声笑语，不再是美好单纯的笑脸，变成了猜疑，嫉妒，一切的一切都是因为交往之前，关系太好，太了解对方。

开始彷徨，开始无奈，开始落泪，开始后悔。

多么美好的一段友谊，可以一辈子的快乐，却变成了让人痛苦一辈子的爱情，那我们能不能试着回到过去？回到最初的美好。

感情就是如此，付出的多的一方受的伤更大。

也许他爱的不是现在这个小鸟依人的你，而是那个把他当成朋友两肋插刀的你。

有些情愫，离爱情很近，却还是达不到心贴心，那么，放手吧，还是那句老话，这个世界，谁没了谁，都还是可以活一辈子的。

也许你会说，回得到过去，回不到最初，当然，这是心态问题，如果可以退回到朋友的位置，也许一切都变得简单，变得真实了。  

不再每天给你发长长的短信，只在想起你的时候跟你聊聊天，解解闷。

不再使劲打听你身边又多了哪些女生，只站在挚友的角度给你分析哪个更好，哪个可以踹掉。

不再在跟你逛街的时候小心观察你是否在看别的女孩的美腿，而是跟你一起坐在大街上一起点评美女。

不再像个受气的小媳妇等待你的爱等待你的关心，而是做自己的女王，让自己变得开心。

不再被你欺负的时候娇滴滴的说句讨厌，让自己都觉得恶心。而是再一次的欺负回去，

这才是真正的我，才是让你忍不住要当一辈子朋友的我。不是不爱，不是不曾努力，当一切明了，你并没有自己想象的那样爱我，那么，我们做回朋友。

我怀念的是我受委屈的时候你给我的暖暖的拥抱和虽不宽大却很有力的肩膀，而不是因为你没像恋人那样关心我时自己留下的任何一滴眼泪。

我怀念的是你在我被人欺负的时候说的那一句：咱们找丫去！不能让人欺负你。  而不是后来因为你不回短信自己瞎想为什么你总欺负我的那种心痛。

我怀念的是曾经每次霸道的拽你送我回家时你义无反顾的样子，而不是后来你把作为男朋友应该送我回家作为任务时焦急看表，心不在焉时那无奈的眼神。

我怀念的是为了逗我开心，为了让我快乐犯傻气的你，而不是看我为你落泪时低头抽烟的你。

也许，还是会在夜深人静的时候想起曾经在一起的过往，但，我更珍惜现在充满欢笑的生活。

你不仅是我曾经深爱过的男人，更是我这辈子要珍惜的朋友。So，你说过的话要算数，心甘情愿被我欺负一辈子。

不是不再爱你，而是退回到好朋友的位置，换个角度去爱你。我知道，你对我的珍惜，你懂得，我对你的感情，那就足够了。 

如果你觉得这辈子欠下叻我什么，下辈子，换你来爱我，好麽？

做不了你最爱的女友，那就做你这辈子最铁的知己。

[ 化 ]

别离未算久 别漫谈如挚友
令清修的我再失守
别凝望太久 令面容如刺绣
像一针一血的引诱
一巴一巴 情感打不化
没碰着你再爱谁未算假
何必担心下半生
何苦不信任缘份
谈多几次心
自然就似情人唯有甘心
无需等的别要等
庸碌一世没遗憾
人家不费心亦能恩爱互吻
谁说别人未衬
泪还未转圈 便被人嫌我怨
扮开心果也够辛酸
旧情未算短 令别人如副选
像他的衫也该你穿
收得多花 迟早火花都化
未信共对上百年未爱他
情不必太深 若能不执着你
谁不懂去互吻
如果恋爱为结婚
如果拥抱为名份
何苦等半生
没人没有情人如果甘心
谁的心可及你狠 谁肯恩爱亦荣幸
难刻骨铭心
亦能找到护荫
忘爱自然合衬

Attn to : ♥ Dear ♥ 101006

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謝謝你 " 寬恕 " 我的過去，" 相愛很難 " 但你卻給了我 " 滿滿 " , 

 There's no " SECRET " between us anymore ,  

 I'll promise that " I'll Lay My Love On You " , " My Love " 

It's coz' I knowing that " Because You Love Me "

I'll  never " Break Your Heart "

I don't want to be at the Top of the " Pyramid " 

Coz' I will be with You at the bottom of the Isoceles Triangle 

... ... ... ... ♥ ... ... ...  ...

Dear , I've chosen You ...

Coz' I do believe that You would fill me up with ♥ ...

I feel bless whenever I'M ...

Coz' the existing of You ♥ ...

無能為力

怎麼說，我都比不上真正情侶的“分手”，

因為我們從未開始，我們只能稱得上“分開”，

我搞不懂，不懂為什麼自己還要想念你，

我搞不懂，不懂為什麼自己還要在乎你，

我搞不懂，不懂我們這一段感情應該放上什麼“名字”，

我搞不懂，我真的不懂，就連你心裡想怎樣，我也不懂，

可能，你早已遺棄這段感情，

可能，這段感情對你不重要，

可能，你已經遺忘我們的過去，

可能，是我想太多了，

可能，你根本沒愛過，

為什麼，那麼多的可能呢？

因為，你從一開始到現在，

連一個明確的答案都不想給我，

為什麼...

難道，我真的那麼微不足道？我氣你！

難道，你認為我會忘記我們為什麼分開嗎？

你明明知道我懂，為什麼還要一直提？我氣你！

我氣你！你說，我們還是好朋友？

我倒想知道，這種好朋友，有多好？我生氣！

我不理了，我理不了什麼，

我不知道，你，有幸福嗎？

我不知道，你，有快樂嗎？

我不知道，你，有滿足嗎？

我不知道，你，有傷心嗎？

我不知道，你，又難過嗎？

我也想關心你，可是我無能為力...

我也想看見你幸福，可是我無能為力...

我也想體諒你心情，可是我無能為力...

我也想在你傷心難過時陪著你，可是我無能為力...

因為，我已經走不進你的世界～

從你的一舉一動，你讓我知道，你有多麼得不想我走進你的圈子裡～

為什麼我這麼想，是因為，你，從來沒告訴我你怎麼想...

你別闖入我的生活好嗎？

我想體諒你，可是，我無能為力～

我想愛你多一點，可是，我無能為力～

我怀念的，只不过是你早已经遗忘的幸福，

我珍惜的，不过是你觉得不再重要的感情，

我想要的，却是你心中最不想给我的爱情,

我都知道，只是心中还是抱着一點點的希望...
我很傻吧... ... 

『心聲』

有没有这么一个人

你会在听到他的名字时忽然变得沉默

有没有这么一个人

你会在独自一人时想他想到哭泣，却在看见他时故作无所谓地笑

生命中有太多的美好与感动

但是你宁愿为了那个人而失落伤感，甚至濒临崩溃

你会在日记上写下大段大段曾经不属于你的失落伤感

会在听到某句歌词那么贴切地唱出你的心声时失声痛苦

会在夜里梦到他冷漠的表情，从夜里哭醒过来

……甚至更多更多

有没有这么一个人

你感谢上天让你遇见了他，你觉得只要看见他就是一种幸福

有没有这么一个人

你无数次说着要放弃，但终究还是舍不得

有没有这么一个人

你为他浪费了青春错过了爱情，却依旧傻傻地守候，即使你知道不管等多久他依旧不会回头

喜欢他的每一天对你来说都是一种折磨

每一分每一秒。都夹杂着痛苦与甜蜜

即使痛苦一次次让你落泪。即使你知道甜蜜只是你安慰自己的假象。可你依旧学不会放手

你说你认了

你说你从喜欢上他那刻起就认输了

你说。[你看，我输到心都空了。]

有没有这么一个人

你无数次希望自己没有喜欢过他，甚至从未认识过他

但是如果老天给你一次机会回到过去，你依旧会选择喜欢他，甚至连一丝犹豫都没有

有没有这么一个人

你不知道他究竟是不是你生命中的那个唯一

你不确定自己是在错误的时间遇见了对的人还是在对的时间遇见了错误的人

…

你能确定的只有你喜欢他。但是他不喜欢你

你爱那人爱得歇斯底里精疲力竭，他却只能对你说[对不起]

曾經討厭，討厭他重提同一件事。
曾經生氣，生氣他給你的答案。
明明就疼痛不已～卻又狠不下心對他說狠話！
寧願對自己殘忍。

明明。

明明你知道你很好对自己说。

明明你知道朋友是心疼你才会这么说

明明你知道你放弃了对彼此都好

可是你就是不想放弃

…

[因为他就是他阿～]

..

由始至终你只是默默的看着。想着。喜欢着…只是因为害怕你的喜欢会带来他的不安

于是你深藏起自己的感受，把难过伤感都往肚子里咽

你觉得自己再难过也好过让他难受

那会让你心疼

你只希望他不要剥夺你喜欢他的权利

你对他那么好好到人人都替你惋惜

好到他的朋友羡慕不已

好到喜欢的那个他愧疚得不知所措……

你知道你必须放下。

因为未来的路还很长。而他给不了你你要的幸福

但是你还是会舍不得

因为你不知道

以后还能不能遇见一个人，能让你像现在爱他一样疯狂而执着地爱着那个人

能不能像喜欢他一样用尽全力.不求回报地喜欢那个人

...

你只知道，他是你心里一道无法愈合的伤口

把他埋在心里的一个角落

深深地、深深地

怕一不小心触及，会引来刺骨的疼痛

然后你只能笑着对他说：

[对不起。亲爱的我不爱你了。]