These few days ...
I keep on Vent Over here !
Just having a lot Of things within me ...
I'm searching for the one who willing to listen to me ..
But , I can't get it... Haix...
finally ,
I come around here ~
I should be happy after examination as usual ~
I should become mad after examination ~
But , this time I din't ...
Just feeling that I'm totally free but without anything ...
seriously , I miss my family so much ...
Miss my friends all the way ...
they all are away from ann ... T__T...
I hope to see them just a while ..
but every time also failed ~
My parents came for the last 2 weeks ...
but ... unfortunately I'm out for my dinner !
I really get mad ! cause already many times I can't meet them ! ...
My friends ~ they all already enjoying their Holidays ...
but not me ... I hope to be with them ...
My family , they all went for their trips ...
but left me .... I hope to travel with them ...
But .. I already expected that they will be very busy with their work now ..
So... Gone ! and I don't hope to disturb them for now ...
is already the end of the year !
I gained a lot of experiences ...
Included the happiness between me and him ,
Included the sadness between me and him ,
Included the complications between me and him ,
Included the ending between me and him ...
I take such a long time to give up ... Just for him ....
and I learned something from this ....
I'll never sacrifies all the tears for someone ,
I'll never give someone full of my heart ,
I'll never trust any promises ,
I'll never listen to the craps by others ,
I'll never wait for the one not worth ...
Never ....
Unless ~ I get somebody to change my point of view ...
I found that I'm so childish sometimes ~
Maybe you're right that I'm try to act happy instead of sad ...
Yes ! I do ! and I always do ~
I'm hiding some feelings that making me suffer ...
I'm hiding some words that I won't let people knows ...
I'm hiding some worrying which changing me all the time ...
I'm hiding myself in the corner just near to the septum of my heart ...
When the excitation waves spreading rapidly throughout my heart ,
I will be explode anytime ...
The waves are just so strong to make me dead !
strong enough to make me hurt !
Goshhh ~ Is just so pain !
till I do not know how to express it ...
I'm trying to manage my heartbeat every time ...
But ~
I'm wondering how long that I'll be around this world ...
I'm wondering to know myself ...
I'm wondering who are my deepest friend ....
I'm wondering why people can change their mind damn fast ...
I'm wondering that whether every little things I did is right Or wrong ...
{ sad ann }
recently , I just feel that someone is tired ~
I just not hope that I'll affect others ~
... Cause I've no rights to make anyone suffer just because of me ...
Just left me if you found that you've got wrong decision before ...
I keep on Vent Over here !
Just having a lot Of things within me ...
I'm searching for the one who willing to listen to me ..
But , I can't get it... Haix...
finally ,
I come around here ~
I should be happy after examination as usual ~
I should become mad after examination ~
But , this time I din't ...
Just feeling that I'm totally free but without anything ...
seriously , I miss my family so much ...
Miss my friends all the way ...
they all are away from ann ... T__T...
I hope to see them just a while ..
but every time also failed ~
My parents came for the last 2 weeks ...
but ... unfortunately I'm out for my dinner !
I really get mad ! cause already many times I can't meet them ! ...
My friends ~ they all already enjoying their Holidays ...
but not me ... I hope to be with them ...
My family , they all went for their trips ...
but left me .... I hope to travel with them ...
But .. I already expected that they will be very busy with their work now ..
So... Gone ! and I don't hope to disturb them for now ...
is already the end of the year !
I gained a lot of experiences ...
Included the happiness between me and him ,
Included the sadness between me and him ,
Included the complications between me and him ,
Included the ending between me and him ...
I take such a long time to give up ... Just for him ....
and I learned something from this ....
I'll never sacrifies all the tears for someone ,
I'll never give someone full of my heart ,
I'll never trust any promises ,
I'll never listen to the craps by others ,
I'll never wait for the one not worth ...
Never ....
Unless ~ I get somebody to change my point of view ...
I found that I'm so childish sometimes ~
Maybe you're right that I'm try to act happy instead of sad ...
Yes ! I do ! and I always do ~
I'm hiding some feelings that making me suffer ...
I'm hiding some words that I won't let people knows ...
I'm hiding some worrying which changing me all the time ...
I'm hiding myself in the corner just near to the septum of my heart ...
When the excitation waves spreading rapidly throughout my heart ,
I will be explode anytime ...
The waves are just so strong to make me dead !
strong enough to make me hurt !
Goshhh ~ Is just so pain !
till I do not know how to express it ...
I'm trying to manage my heartbeat every time ...
But ~
I'm wondering how long that I'll be around this world ...
I'm wondering to know myself ...
I'm wondering who are my deepest friend ....
I'm wondering why people can change their mind damn fast ...
I'm wondering that whether every little things I did is right Or wrong ...
{ sad ann }
recently , I just feel that someone is tired ~
I just not hope that I'll affect others ~
... Cause I've no rights to make anyone suffer just because of me ...
Just left me if you found that you've got wrong decision before ...
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